katchoz's Xanga

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 23:40:01 GMT

"even now some part of him wished
they'd never found this refuge.
some part of him always wished
it to be over." -cormac mccarthy, the road.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 07:32:06 GMT

isnt it always the straw
that broke the camel's back?

scaling.
you used to think rollerskating
was the coolest thing.
fond pastime, but you wouldn't do it a few years ago (or now).
maybe now (or in a few years),
when identities (experiences) are identified.

in what dynamic range
do you currently stand?

Friday, December 29, 2006

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 04:59:39 GMT

"only brave warriors fall
from their horses in battle.
how can kneeling cowards
know what a fall is?"
-monsoon wedding.

such is life.

Monday, October 30, 2006

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 04:36:43 GMT

no solid ground, to walk on.
-ms. john soda.

short-sighted.

sometimes it is hard
to make the right decision
when all you want to do
is to make the wrong decision.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 03:38:17 GMT

sometimes it is necessary to feel guilt.
the negative sensation is a red flag
for the need to change.

but i suppose the hardest part
is to make the transition.

you cannot dwell in the negativity;
you have to get over the guilt,
so that you can actually proceed
with fixing the situation.

observations can only get you so far,
especially when it concerns your self.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Sun, 07 May 2006 00:12:10 GMT

life...
life will be rosy
if you can just get out of
one silly little jam.

maybe.
maybe not.
-mrs. marsh, twin peaks.

david lynch, you rock.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 13:18:57 GMT

what comes is better
than what came before.
-i found a reason, cat power.

hello, 24.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 04:59:33 GMT

things are going to be all right.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 02:22:45 GMT

it took me a little while to discover
wolves in sheep coats who pretend to be lovers
men who lack conscience will even
lie to themselves, to themselves.
a friend once said, and i found to be true
that everyday people, they lie to God too
so what makes you think, that they won't lie to you?
-forgive them father, lauryn hill.

statements can be interpreted in one of two ways:
said as truth or meant as completely opposite,
depending on the motive to hurt, protect oneself or get by.

i'm sure there are other motives equally salient,
but those won't be tallied up here. nonetheless,
the cynical ones plow through life trying to interpret correctly-
to not hurt, to protect themself, or to get by.
well you know what? let believability and risk be at play.
may the car crash come, may i be misled. but in the end,
that's not the only option of how to think about things.

take risks. it doesn't always have to be the way lauryn hill says.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 22:26:28 GMT

my friend said 'stick to your guns',
but instead i just got stuck.
and i'm walking backwards
looking forward to getting done
but that ain't enough, no you want me to run.
-carolina, m.ward.

it's not time, it's not the weather,
it's not the microscope that wasn't put back in the right place.
but the real enemy is your self that requires (?) change.

if we do/don't do this, will we be offending our self?
how we perceive our self, how we normally act on things,
the experiences we've endured and analyzed and come to be our self.
or do we recognize that our current mind state is distorted,
that things have not resulted in happiness the way we were,
and maybe we should act like others who seem happy and not do/do this?

transitions of change are difficult to pursue,
especially when one is already in such conflict with oneself.

how wonderful it would be,
to separate yourself from your self.